The Journey.

Sunday, June 1, 2008 10:39 AM

argh.. shit.
this is the first time ever i start posting on my blog
with such unorganized and confused mind..

Maybe i should start using proper English in my post..
First of all , i think i would want to start with my aunt.
She's such a irritating person as
she keeps changing her plans as and when she likes it.
When she wants to go out with me to the beach ,
she calls and say that i am going to go out with her later to the beach.
Reluctantly , i agreed.
Later on , she called again when i am done bathing
and properly prepared to go to the beach ,
saying that she does not want to go anymore .
What's more? She asked me to go to her house instead.
I had to take around one hour or less to get to her house
but she can drive her car and reach in ten minutes.
It's like what the....
Then i called my cousin (her daughter)
and asked her to help me bring sleeping bag
(it's because our house didn't have one.)
yeah and that's mostly all.
Later she's coming to my house ...
i think after 10 minutes she will reach?
i don't know but i start to dislike her ..
argh...

Next issue i am going to talk about is camp.
There's so many things to pack for the two camps.
You know , the secondary one camp is organized
by the councilors and the secondary three camp
happens to be right after the secondary one camp.
This is havoc.
Not mentioning that my clothes and undergarments
might not be enough for the total of 5 days camp ,
i have to pack my bag with this bloody mixed up brain of mine.
It's so shitty ... man
I don't really feel excited for the camps right now ,
though i may seemed really fun.
Never mind , i am not going to talk about camps.

Next up is about Softball.
I do not know whether the others feel the same as i do ,
but i feel that we are not going to make it next year into even the second round.
The attitude of all of us in the team seemed so different.
Maybe coach is right , our attitude really sucks alot.
We shouldn't even get into the second round this year.
We don't deserve it at all.
I do not know why i feel so drifted from everyone of the teammates.
I hope i am wrong to say we might not be able to get top 4 next year,
but right now what i am trying to say is that
if we don't put in much more effort into the trainings ,
we are not going to make it .
We might only scratch the surface of this goal ,
or maybe not even scratch it.
I do not want us to miss the chance again.
I do love to play softball ,
but the attitude i got from all my teammates ,
makes me want to quit.
Maybe not as serious as quit ,
but i might not want to play softball anymore
when i am out of secondary school.
I know that i am a lousy player as well ,
but i hope our team can improve together.

This holiday is full of homework homework homework ,
rehearsals , remedial , rehearsals , remedial.
It's getting tiring for me.
I want to rest ,
but i can't.
Maybe i should try and get used to it.

I have not get Michelle Lim's birthday present
and fahrenheit's album.
Manga has been boring nowadays .
Angeline went malaysia again (if i am not wrong )
i haven't been talking to her much lately ,
different schedule.
sian...sian..sian..
i shall end my long post right now ..
Post again next time ..

-End-
I hope things will get better ,
i hope i am just being too sensitive and negative.
I seemed to have lost my way ,
but i still have my compass.
should i believe in my compass and move on ,
or should i forsake it and try to find another way to move onwards?
I am confused , both in my teammates and my thoughts.