ha! my blog have been soo dead recently
let me write some of my thoughts n thinkings,
bits and pieces of my heart in :)
try feeling it
words can still describe all of them
all those thoughts that ran through my mind
Fear- to lose my team
Anxious-to bring my team back together
disappointed-of myself..i just suck
lost in a remote world that i know not of
buried in thoughts that will drown me
shaken by how things cannot work out at times
fear when things turns for the worse
anxious when i cannot believe in myself
taken aback by the truth of my uselessness
my inability has brought down
lots of things that i treasure
i don't know how to handle it well
i wasn't born with the ability to lead
i wasn't taught as i always follows
i am not as clever as i may seemed to be
in fact , im no good
i hate the feeling of not knowing what to do
about the things
that i really treasure
things that holds
the same significants with my love for mathematics
or even more
i am not sure
not sure ...
what to do with my team
what will be the best solution to solve the problems
not a matter of dislike
but a matter of interest
i feel
that some of us
have lost interest in it
train as friends requested
slack as u think u have worked hard enough
but in fact not
i know i am in no position to critise
i will work hard
but really hope with all my heart
that my teammates can work side by side with me
with faridah
i don't want
to bring the reputation down
i hate to make my coach lose face
i want him to be proud of us
i don't want him to feel disappointed
really..
can those that has been slacking
think through what i have to say
look at all our matches till now
look at the scoreboards
though i myself sucks
but at least feel sorry and guilty of it
so many years of hardwork
the graduated softballers have put in
and build a such good reputation for the school
let coach feel so proud of them
but now?
think.
are we or are we not bringing down the reputation?
i am sure we are...
so , can we work hard hand in hand together to achieve better?
Can we Aim higher?
even if it's now a bit too late as the nationals are already here
can the sec 3s work on
to prepare next year?
come for training
even you are only left with 1 hour
to train after ur remedials
please
i want to see the whole B'Girls team coming down for the trainings
Please do.
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drip drop drip drop...
sooner or later..
things cannot hold out long..
:D pls don't say i emoing
cause blogs are meant to write all ur undesired feelings in
so now u know why i always don't blog when i don't feel like it
it's a good thing if i don't blog right? hahas:D